10 Dec 2003

message in a bottle

notes in an email to V, from me..

""I feel there’s more validity in what I’m doing now, my music at this point in my life.. the darker stuff, with a touch of humour.  The eye cast back over years of just ‘doing’ things with other people.. letting it happen.  Part curiosity, part so intense I couldn’t have done it any other way.  The music now is all reflecting on a lifetime of knowing all too well how love and passion work.. how  love and passion are lost and found again and sometimes how passion’s gone haywire and right over the cliff taking your whole life with it.. 

I’ve had so many feelings racing around my body and succumbed to them and let them happen.  So many things I’ve let happen that more ‘practical’ or more ‘careful’, maybe more ‘frightened’ people would have never let happen.  So, this time in my life and into the future is the more important time to be talking about it.. telling about it.. writing about it, singing about it.. 'Cuz I've HAD it!  Boy, have I had it.

Young love is very ‘sweet’ and hot and sometimes tragic.  Experienced adult love is still a surprise because it’s the same in intensity if not moreso, but bitter-sweet and edgy dark hot and still sometimes tragic and sometimes dull as effing dishwater and you long for a long edgy dark sunny bright hot quick fix of a tragi-hot-bittersweet romance in between the all too familiar snores.  Adult love has definitely got more bite.  And it only gets ‘more’ with experience and the letting-it-happen thing.  Of course…one drawback to experienced love… it doesn’t want to live in a trailer park.  A couple of quid makes it more attractive, maybe even lets it happen.  Ok…. so it’s not that spontaneous."" E

 

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